Oh well

As much as I bitched through out the year wanting it to be summer and all that jazz, sometimes I think the opposite would be better. I love summer with the whole no school thing and the getting to see your friends and hanging out and everything but I don't know. Sometimes I think it'd be easier if there were no summer. Just going straight through school getting it all over with and be able to get out faster than before.

It'd be a pain in the ass and this is why it's only a thought sometimes... I just think that maybe it wouldn't be that horrible of a plan.

It'd be faster to finally get and go away. I usually don't feel like that but sometimes you just have to wonder...and that's what I did and that's what I came up with.

Just doesn't get it

It's the truth, I just don't get it. And by it, I mean a whole lot of things.

For example why do some people have a great body and can eat like a horse while others, like myself, have to work a shit load just to look semi decent. And I'm not one of those people who cares only about beauty, it's just highly frustrating thats all.

I also don't understand why when there's nothing else going on in the world (that's sarcasm because there's a shit load going on right now) do we have to pick something so ridiculous to keep focus on. Example : Obesity is a main cause to global warming. Please, let me just hit someone with a bat.

I don't get why I should feel guilty for not wanting to do what everyone else or what just one person wants to do. I can't help that somedays I just feel like being alone just to chill out. I can't help that I'm not a clingy attaching person. It just isn't me so why should I feel bad??

My last little bit of my pointless entry that I just felt like typing because it popped into my head, I don't get how people live in la la land and are oblivious to reality. Although, sometimes I wish I were those people. I wish I could be oblivious...it'd be so much easier...atleast I think so.

Spring and summer are on the way...

Fantastic.

Sure I'm excited for the nice spring weather, not worrying about warming up my car, the no need for winter clothing, and summer is so close that I can practically see the end of this semester.

However these two wonderful seasons also have their downfalls:

a) it is now time to lose all the holiday/hibernation fat that many have put off.

b) bathing suit shopping is a BITCH. enough said.

c) dieting and exercising don't come easily to me ( yea yea I know it's my fault but whatever)

d) looking good for a week long summer vacation is going to send me into stress mode Xs a million

Spring and summer have their ups and downs, to bad my weight can't go down...like majorly. fuck my life.

Dreams...

Dreams can be wonderful things. I'm not talking of dreams in the sense of like a dream job or dream lifestyle so on and so forth. I'm talking about actual dreams, the ones that play before us while we sleep. They can create masterpieces, they can tell the future, or they can just provide laughs when we reflect on them later after we wake up.

Then on the other side of things, dreams can be horrible. They could show horrible futures or nightmares that wake us up sweating. There is nothing worse than dreaming of a loved one dying in front of you, aside from seeing it in real life if it may ever happen. Or for a child nightmares only make monsters under the bed more believable.

One of the worst dreams I've every had was one where life was going great for me everything was perfect, or so I thought. I found out in my dream that my boyfriend didn't want to be with me anymore that he got bored of me and had began to cheat on me with his ex. And how I found out was through one of my best friends because he felt the need to confess to someone so it was to her...instead of telling me. I woke up in the morning very confused...it felt very real and even though I knew it was only a dream my heart sunk a little.

I know that he would never do that to me outside of dreamland, i know perfectly well. It's still just scary enough knowing that my thoughts could create such a picture before me.

Dreams to me should be happy things not horrible things. I know there is no control over what we dream but still a lot of people glorify dreaming and I felt like mentioning that dreams don't have to be nightmares to be scary. Not all dreams are great.

This was a really random post but its 1:30 in the morning and I can't sleep so I felt like doing something.

Not much to do but babble

It's pretty much 1 a.m and instead of getting sleep after a long but awesome weekend I'm up sitting on my computer like usual. A typical night for me.

I would just randomly like to say that hollywood has glammed up the whole road trip thing. It is fun and a sweet time but it isn't a smiles and giggles. Getting lost is a bitch, getting a sore back and neck sucks and well I felt the need to do that little rant to show that there is cons to road trips. However those few things wouldn't stop me from having more haha.

Although the biggest pro is the freedom. And having the control to do whatever is the best. Something that sometimes lacks in my life. Even though my little road trip wasn't all over the country, it just happened to be all over PA, I liked the adventure and confirms that I really want to travel all over the place.

Hey hopefully one of my adventures will be in europe some day. An amazing dream that I wish to come true :)

Basically I guess the point of this babbling was to emphasize that freedom is life and it makes it alot more enjoyable and fun :]